Video call initiated between Pyrenan Crow and the Fox (Beatrice and Serenity)
Look before you begin I didn't know who else to talk to but, I've my legal team doing their thing and I'm done with it all, you know? Someone can only take so much before they reach their breaking point and that's where I am now. I look back and there's so much I don't remember, damn it Charles robbed so much of me that it's hard to know what's actually true, that period of time, 2016 to just recently, is just a massive hole in my memory and what I did in those times is lost to me. I did things, said things, believed in things and they're so foreign to me, how do I reconcile that? How do I make up for that? I don't have the answer and I suspect you don't either, but I've no one else to reach out to, no refuge left, but this perjury stuff, I'm done with it all, I'm tired of fighting, I'm just done you know?
I have a period of time I was doing things that, it wasn't me, I was hopped up on Charle's cocktail and I did so many things, allowed so many injustices, that I cannot begin to reconcile with myself and I am hateful, vengeful even, and it's not something I am used to I was not me at the moment Rokkenjioma needed me on the Throne, that duty was robbed of me when it mattered most and I hate that he did that to me. Rape is not just sexual, but what Charles did to me was rape in every meaning of the word, except sexual, he raped me and the Rokkenjiman People and I somehow let it happen. I look back at my actions in those days with horror, because I was there but I was not present. It's a cloud to me, I see only vapours but, my Gods, what did he do in my name? Islyna, Jesus, Helus,,,,my gods what did I fail to prevent?"